SUPRISE BY HIM..

taraa.... guess wht.....i really cnt stop guessing what is the reason u ask me to wait you.....i duno why u wasting money bought this to me.......i just jealous not wan it.....so please please please dun waste ur money animore.......i beg u.....aniway..thx alot darling....muack!!!!!

tears...

i dropped my tears this morning.....but i knew....i cnt behave like this.....i need collect all the confidence into myself... concerntrate my studies...but... guess wht i failed.....my tears drop again on my books....no one realized it....they thought i was yawning...lucky....only the god who knows my feelings right now....my brain being upside down...i duno i shud be happy or sad....no feelings at all... help me anyone....

PLKN

I was sleeping in the car today b4 going in to school....out of sudden my grandma wake me up and told me tht PLKN lists will be release on tommorow....my heart had made a conclusion ...tht i will be going since im the 1st child in the family...and my darling wont go since his bro went b4...

my class worried all the time about the results.... haiz.....phycho people mind la....

after i came back from school i wanted to inform my darling about this....b4 i could do this...my grndma ask me a question about fb pics ,.....haiz......i answered politely....she keep quiet...

i noe she does not want me to be a bad girl....she wants me to have a better life..without regret anythings...a succes huamn in the world...thx nanny...i love and appreciate u....but i noe wht am i duin ryte now.....trust me...

haha ...i xsempat tell darl....he inform me 1st....he damn moody.....

i told him to be cool...just 3 months not three years....

then we fall aslept...

he woke me up......

then i on laptop back....

nowadays damn diffcult to online,,,,,server down,,,,,mybe P1WiMAX is not a good broadband,,,,dun ever apply with them,,,,,

success after a 100x of failure i saw carmen wall post......she knews the result of plkn.....so i decided to asked her hw she knew it....since tht websites does not post any results yet....despite ...i rather duno the result thn know it....

he had been choosen....but im not,,,,,my conclusion terbalik ed...

i damn sad v the result.....why he had been choosen? my mood status automatically turns moody.....im speechless...it is just like the lightning passed in front of me.....i felt like wanna hug him tht time.....i just can express here....im sorry....i hope we will make it....

my mission is focus in my spm 1st...others..i will try my best to forget it for a moment....

worry

im damn worry on a frenz now.....she is like putting her life to the fire...im worry tht i will lost her as a fren.although we r not very close to each others but my tears really drop bcoz of thinking her condition right now..i hope tht she will be safe ...

ko tai lai

today went to my epor house.....her daughter going to marry soon in this month.....felt damn bored...we talked for a moment...they asked me wht u will study for nex year..huh.....this ques make me damn fan....please dun asked again....now wan concerntrate my spm only........4 months plus......very scared....

someone.....please ...i need someone to hear my outcry.....am i a person thy dun hv any feeling? do i love my family? do i love him? do i love myself? am i a cruel person? i duno wht should i do... i pass my study...i failed for my life....what should i do? commit suicide? just forget about study? i just care for others....but do they know it? friends? boyfriends? or family? none from u all....i just know hug my pillow and hear my outcry....i noe...im stupid tht i talk to the pillow...but .....it is better then tak to them.....i always wrong....but i din mean tht i always win....

oh god.....i duno wht hpnd to me this year.....can i turn back the time? stupid alicia....of coz no.....wht can i do is just let it be..... god,, pls gv me the strength to obtain each obtacles tht fall on my faith..