day 15

drove my family to desa today..

to settle my taylor's scholarship application..

done with all the things and now waiting for their call..

for interview! scarry need to wear formal again..

if i success la...

went to tesco at old klang road

not that big because the hypermarket is at basement

yh called me...i answered but we din talked so much as i with my family

feel so sorry to him

but actually i waiting him to call

after finished shopped

we went over time and have our dinner

the environment and interior design is quite nice

had some beer and pork there

and the beer quite unique coz it was not undergoing a fermentation process

quite nice to drink and i feel a bit high

haha but i still can drive back home...no worry im safe!

miss yoon hee very much

i worry him...

hope he will recover soon...

luckily u called me just now if not...

i will be crying like hell....

day 14

today went inti again...

and i only can refund rm 900++

rm 400 gone le...pain*

nvrm la i take it as a expansive lesson!

better than none!

hopefully they will bank in the money to my account as soon as possible...

tomorrow need to go my kaima's place

and fill in the taylor 'sform

if they call me then i will go taylor with kaiyeh's

to talk to the datuk

so scary ...hope i can do it

this month i faced alot of critical problems

and i have learned not to lean on people so much..or anymore?

i told myself that i can do it without you...

yeah finally i can do it...but there is still many

challenging days and obtacles coming day by day...

but i hope that there is not a problem for me...

bcoz i trust myself i can do it.....

the 14 days without him beside me...

but i noe he is always inside my heart...

and hear my outcry ...

thnking of u every night ...

praying for ur safety...

hope u can take care urself....

LOVE YOU

day 11 12 13

3 days din blog...
so many thgs hapnd...
i pulled out myself from inti...
tmro going there to withdraw my refund...
hopefully they wont break the promises as he promised me last friday....

so happy tht yoon hee got his hp back on fri ...
i din hope tht he can get it back soon...
chat with him whole night and called him for an hour....

today visited him at NS
he looks cute v his new hairstyle...
lol....yet im sad coz today is sunday...
means his hp will be kept and i cant contct v him until sat...
hopefully he wont worry me so much as i can take care myself here...
i hope he can take care himself and be patience for every single things happend...
i love you loh yoon hee!

day 10

shud i chge inti to taylor??

day 9

my feeling very moody
i dont know wht i feel..
but i noe my heart is crying...
yeah...crying for u....
beg u to come back now!!!

day 8

haiz.....when u want come out la...

i enroled INTI ed ar

im officially INTI's student...

im so worrying you now..

i noe u cant sleep because of my coll

i told u not to do so...

i noe u very degil one...

i cnt believe u not worry...

feel like wan cry ar!!!

haiz...

i miss u so much,,,

when is ur sem break le...

i hope u can come back la....

i got my time for u after i study also i still got the time le...

haiz....i tot when enrol i can busy with my coll

but my timetable is sucks!!!!

loh yoon hee.....alicia miss u ar!!!!!

day7

i din cried today

today the morning i wake up by mayfoon message

she told me about the enrolment

jeff willing to help and fetched me to inti subang

before i could make a move

my mum and my godmum fight again...

haiz...i cried a..

ixit very hard for me to study ?

i using my own money to study now...

always like tht always argue if talk about ALICIA'S STUDY!

im so sad,,,i keep tell myself not to give up...

jeff drove me to inti subang

weng yan was waiting me at the front gate..

im so appreciate to have frens like them around me and keep supporting me...

im so touched

i asked about the scholarship

is not wht i thought

it mess up my mind again

the classes started today

after i answered ur call

i tell myself not to register today

and think back agn

haiz...

but i thnk i have the ans ed..

hope u will support me...

crying for u now...

useless alicia ><

day 6

the day 6

sunday!

yeah i talked to u the whole day and

smsed...but we seems like no topic to talk like that

i miss ur face...i wan slap it when i see u ..hehe( soft slap)

i quite happy today...yet i still cry...

im so useless ><

i got so many friends here..

they are GREAT

especially JEFF and MAY FOON

others are nicholas phang,adam,felix and merrick foo..

they support me kao kao!!

haiz i make u worry now...

im so sorry

i just realize tht INTI intake is on tmro...

im so careless...

but u hope tht i will wait u come back and enroll together..

but i thnk back if i din enroll now...

wht shud i do at home ?

cry always? keep thinks our sweet memory?

or stare at the wall and duin ntg...

i wan fulfill my timetable,,,

i wan get myself busy so tht i cant cry easily...

and wont thnk negatively...

i asked u why u wan me wait u to enroll

but i cnt acpt it....

coz i would not mind it at all u noe...

haiz..

i hope u will have a good sleep tonight...

i love u darl...love u till my last breath....

u must take care always...

or else i dont want visit u de ar! hehe

SHER LOVE YOON HEE

day 5

day 5 le....

71 days to go...

suffer o...

i still cant accept it...

haiz....

im so useless

but esther told me tht i shud take it as a challenge...

yea...this challenge very hard for me...

i hate this challenge...

khye yeng said she din see alicia like this before...

i really cant control my feeling...

im sorry darling...

if u read this tht time pls dont blame me..

coz i love u!

today went out for dinner

eat mc donald with family...

at tesco puchong...

have fun with them.....

but in my mind is full of LOH YOON HEE

day 4

this card made by him before he leave ns..

ystdy nite until morn

my stomach pain...

killing me again...

very pain...

and i keep complain to u ...

8am go prepare myself to go out v the sir

to MCA HQ to appeal the jpa things...

i just appeal la...

but i dont put my hope on government ed...

i drove my bro and mum to oldtown today ...

then i drive myself to pick up khye yeng

she pei me go TP...

i success jual my uniform ed..

then we go oldtown mcd to wait weng yan

we chat and laugh..

but they duno tht i wan cry..

i keep tahan oni...

but ky said she can see it...

i keep seeing my hp

wish u will call me...

but u din...

i still hoping for the evening call

wish u to say tht u miss me and u love me...

coz i damn miss u ,,,

and i love u darl...

i everyday hope miracle can happen...

u can come back and hug me now...

i thnk i shud stop hoping tht u will get u hp back...

good night darl....take good care

day 3

miss u so much

im so miss u ...

i followed the sir to the MCA person...

tmro i will going with the sir to ampang (MCA HQ) there and and send the appeal letter...

now hits story is mca going to make a complaint to our pm ABT JPA

im so scared of tmro...

i thnk i can do it,,,

the sir ask me to find a college to enroll 1st...while waiting the appeal

but i told him tht the intake is not now...

but again i need to register fast to grab the scholarship...

i might choose inti...

reasonnable for me...and cheap!

i miss u here...u noe ma???

i hope u will fine there...

i keep try to hide my feelings...

but i cant

luckily kelly and khye yeng helps me...

jeff,alan,nicholas,esther....

all supporting me...

im so selfish...

i keep fail...

and din listen to them...

im so sorry to them...

u noe hw stupid am i...

i scare of eating...

when i eat..i will cry...

when i sleep i will cry

after asleep then wake up agn and see hp see got ur msg anot..

when dun have it...i will cry until i asleep..

when i bath....i will cry too,,,,

i bath with my tears,,,

its so pain...

it painful than a knife stuck in my heart..

can u come back to me...

oh...i just dreaming,,, i noe u cnt....

im sorry i keep lie u tht im okay and i gpt sleep..and i din cry..

i just dunwan u too worry...

darling....baby miss u and love u forever...

MUACKS ANG HUGS TIGHT!

day 2

today still can sms with u...
im so happy..yet im so sad...
i cry for whole day also...
but i thnk i feel better now...
u were so busy inside...
and u complaining u are sien inside...
nvm la yh...less than 100 day oni...
ive been taught tht" if u wanna cty just cry...cry is a way to relieve feelings but dont forget to wipe off the tears and stand up again" i will learn this..
i miss u so much...

i tot i cant cht v u until u sleep..
i waited u call me as u say...
u din call back..means the hp not v u ed i thnk...
i hope u take care inside...
guai guai inside...dont fight v people...
i will wait u here...
muackz...

day 1

woke up at 6am++
yoon hee is leaving today...
so i WENT oldtown and met him for the last time....
we lepak there for awhile
sending him to stadium kj with his bro sum hee and his mum today...
i keep tahan not to cry at home and in the car until i reach mcd
i cried....and when he reached he saw i crying...
that's is terrible....
i hope he can see me smile...
but i cant do it...im sorry darl

we ate breakfast together at oldtown...
after that we headed to stadium kj and reache bout 9am++ ...
we saw several tents there ...
yoon hee went there to register...

we found the bus...age 7776
this bus heading to
kem nilam ehsan mukim bidor...
he hugged me before he went up to the bus...
i wan to cry but i tahan oni...
he smsed me ....

the bus finally moving...
i wish the bus broke down...
i wish yh will come back to me and hug me agn...
however i just dreaming...
we got in to the car and waited the bus aside ...
hope can see him for the last time...
yeah we did...and i cried...when i turn my head at the back staring the bus...

i cried for the whole day ...
he reached there about 12.30++pm
hope he can take care himself inside....
dont worry me here...

I LOVE U YOON HEE...

appreciate!

hoddie t-shirt from wild channel...

made by loh yoon hee ..every sticks eaten by him!!

thx loh yoon hee a.k.a my darling bibii for these!!

love u always....

as i said,,,,dont waste ur money when ur pocket is full please!

a day at ioi

i felt so great when i come back early today....

coz without worries and nagging from grandmum and mummy!

im so sorry to lyh coz i was late today....

he ord bought the movie's tickets and some snacks before i reached...

thankiu!

and my mood not that good coz my soul still on the bed...

huhuhu..im sorry...

fast 5 was awesome! a great movie! super nice!!

thx lyh for treating!

thx also for the lunch >kenny roger....

wanna advice you dont spend money once ur pocket is full!!

remember!!!

about the shoe....

is not worth it...

my flats still can wear...

so no need buy it first...

after all rosak only i will buy it...

so dun worry ya...

sorry make u so "mang" and "gek hei"

anyway thanx alot for today...

thx for willing to accompany me as u said it before u leave just now....

im sorry for today for hurting u ....

i duno where's my mood gone....

friends?

sometimes i dont understand what is the meaning of F.R.I.E.N.D???

friends who are concerning about you

friends who are trying to challenge you

friends who are always be with you when you're in trouble

friends who are only seek for your helps when they having some problem

friends who are betraying you

friends who are willing to share and hear your sorrows

friends who are pretending

friends who are willing to be your friends forever

which types of friend's character are you??

have to wait again!

i've to wait again...

faster gv ans la...

if not i join f6 ed...

haiz....

so disappointed.

mothers' day celebration

happy mother's day to every mum thru out the world

none of a child can pay back the hardworks tht every mum did to their children!

love and care them while they still here with you!!

i cant wait anymore!!

i thought that the list will release on tomorrow ...

haiz....im so impatient to wait it anymore...

i wanna know whether i can get it anot...

i did not mean that im rushing myself to study...

but the pain of waiting is damn terrible...

hopefully the government wont chge the date anymore...

and im praying that im selected to become thier scholar...

form 6?? shud i??

for those who wanna enroll frm 6...

the registeration day is on next mon...

means next monday lower form 6 school started...

based on my friends and teachers opinions...

they said it is not secure if u join form 6...

i dun have income to study ...thts y i decided to go form 6...

but i will made my mind once jpa has shorlisted!

darling birthday celebration...

1st of may 2011

it was ur bday....

i woke up late and i rush like hell...

went to ioi mall bought a present for u....

sorry i did it last minute coz i dont have free time to buy it...

bought a belt and a wallet frm larrie brand...

i duno its suits u anot...i hope u will like it...

u keep spam my cell phone...

but i deny to answer it...

if i pick p u will ask me this and that...

so i decided to deaf my ear...muahaha.....

run out from ioi to get the bus...

waw,,,,fee increase rm0.50...to kl sentral is rm 3...

talked to u on the hp is so dizzy....coz im standing...

and in front of me was a lady ...she advise me not to wear sexy clothes and beware of those bangla people...

reach kl sentral ....saw him waiting me at the bustop...

then we walk together to kl sentral ...bought tickets to klcc...

coz we wanna go aquaria and aquazone...

reach there i saw shwu sha...

and when on the way back i saw choi yee...

back to puchong...

we had our dinner at bbq plaza...(family set)

hope u enjoyed the day....

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